lovebylove

the other day i was asked, whats you three favourite smells? well i must say it was a random question, but one that actually got me thinking. There answer was petrol, cut grass, and bbq’s you maybe able to tell this answer was from a man.

i thought about this question and i agreed with bbq’s they do normally smell nice, suncream and baby talcom powder. The reason for suncream is that it would mean its sunny, and in england this is rare, when i need to get the suncream out.

so a thought of the day… whats your favourite smells

in my eyes there is no relationship out there that is perfect. there is always going to be things in the relationship that isn’t perfect, but you still love each other for who they are. relationships arn’t without arguements i think that why theres an ‘a’ in relationship and why there is an ‘l’ for love. some arguments are productive, and some arguments are just not worth having. those argument where you have had enough and just take all the blame just because you want it over.. is not going to solve a thing and all that is happening is brushing it under the carpet. talking it through calmly, would be the best thing to do… but when your annoyed calm isnt always the first emontion that springs to mind. but one thought that always comes to my mind… is i don’t want to agrue with you because i love you. long term relationships are not without there diffulties but i would not change my man for the world, he makes my laugh and can make me cry in an instant, he can make my heart skip a beat his the only one that can. his helped me through alot of things, and im grateful. we do have a nice relationship 95% of the time… like i said nothing is perfect and i think maybe we have high expectations of one another. the other 5% of the time well we annoy each other normally by saying stupid things without thinking what we are saying.

when my friends say to me ‘they’ll never know how much i love them’ and in someways i think well you could show them and make them see, but in someways i think, you will only realise when they are no longer there.

so relationships alway puzzle me when people say ‘how do you have perfect relationship?’ well nothing is perfect… so don’t try and make it.

 but one thing i am going to try is finding something that we both enjoy doing together and make it a hobby.. ideas are most welcome

over the christmas period i decied that i was going to make a christmas cake and a ginger breadhouse, now the christmas cake went well and ran smoothly… whereas the gingerbread house was stressful at times! especially as during the decorating the power went out! so i was sat there attempting it in the dark, with 3 candle lit. i used Kristy’s recipe which i got of the channel 4 website and i use a template i made up. If you are making a ginger bread house it does take alot of time… a whole day if your like me. But it did turn out okay, not perfect (in my head) to everyone else it was excellent i’m just to picky.

christmas cake and ginger bread house!

Is it the tree or the food, or the christmas shopping. well christmas shoping is something you either love or hate, i have to say i love it, i think it’s that which gets me in a christmas mood. I look forward to seeing peoples faces as they open my gift. One thing i do dislike and i think most people will agree is the queues in the shops, but the atmosphere is nice.

Snow is another thing i love! I am really hoping that it snows this year! It comes with troubles but it is so pretty and fun. But the best thing about christmas is spending time with family although, and this year with two additions to the family my boy and my boyfriend it will be that extra special and this year i am looking forward to it, and i am looking forward to them opening their presents i got them (as i got carried away)

But one thing i will be doing this year is making a christmas cake, and i will attempt to decorate it to a high standard, i will let you know on my next post about how it went and i will post in a picture.

This time last week i was on my way to birmingham to see the amazing Rihanna. I have seen her before on her ‘last girl on earth tour’ her tour before was good, but this ‘loud’ tour is amazing! Everything is better, rihanna performs on stage for 2hours! She is amazing live and the way the performance was choreographed was amazing. During one of her songs she picks someone from the audience to come on stage with her! Not only that she throws her ray bans and drum sticks into the crowd! Her merchandise is really good on the loud tour too. If you are going to see her on her loud tour then you will have an amazing, brilliant and mind blowing time!

I have just caught up with ‘the x factor’ and all i can say is im disappointed, because Jade Richards did not go through to the final 16. Jade’s first audition brought me to tears, it was so powerful and you could feel her passion for singing. Throughout the 1st audition i could see the expression on her nans face, she was so proud of her. Jade Richards was the next adele. I do not know why she had to go home. I hope a record company gives her a chance, because her voice is AMAZING, STUNNING and BEAUTIFUL. I hope she doesn’t give up, because she has a talent there. If she performed at my wedding it would be indescribable, or even if she went on tour it would be brilliant!

If you haven’t seen Jade Richards first performance then i would recommend that you watch it on youtube ‘Jade Richards someone like you’

I have these big dreams… you know the sort, nice house, family, nice car, good holidays… the question i keep asking myself is how am i gonna get to that dream and make it realistic. Wining the lottery has come up in my mind alot, but i am going to need a better plan than that. So i thought what about the cake business idea, i enjoy making cakes and i am creative when it comes to decorating them so why dont i do that, start at home and then build up from there to some day owning my very own shop, but the problem being i have no idea where to begin, so as i sit in my room on a sunday evening thinking about how to make my dreams come true, i still come to the same conclusion.. where to start?

I have ideas about traveling the world, but i need to actually earn some money to be able to do that, so this is where i need to seriously start thinging about what can i do? hoping that an idea will just pop into my head and that it will make me millions, unfortuneatly that idea has not yet come to mind. I will try not to give up though, and one day achieve my dream, because my dreams are what gets my through the days

I have had my puppy for two months now, he is called Calvin (named after Calvin Klein) he is a spoilt puppy to say the least! but training him has been my biggest task, he is good most of the time, apart from around 5 oclock…. MAD moment hits, and he is running about like a looneyy and i end up looking like one too!

I got Calvin a few days after i got out of hospital, i have wanted a dog since i was three and finally, i got one, it was a BIG suprise,i had tears in my eyes, and apart of me was scared thinking ‘how do i train a puppy!’ and my first words were ‘what make is he’ not what breed, i said make. the make is Calvin Klein but the breed is a toy poodle/king charles spaniel.

 I find it funny when i talk to him as though i am talking to a baby… ‘good boyy calvin, whos a gawjus boy, calvins a gawjus boy’

it is hard to imagain that a cute thing like Calvin can make such a skink!

i love my puppy to pieces as much of a little rascal as he maybe… he is cute, and when he has a cute calm moment, my heart melts. It is amazing how a dog become part of the family.

many people have dogs, and it was only yesterday that my boyfriend had to put down his dog simba. He loved his dog to pieces and he was apart of their family, at five oclock yesterday hit, my heart sunk thinking of him. as my boyfriend told me about the visit to the vets.. my heart went out to him. so i would like to say R.I.P simba <3

Most people have there storys of how they met there partner… right? well this is mine… We met through a friend, we was all in our town, and the first thing i said to him is “i really fancy a creme egg” (what a chat up line!) i then began to laugh at myself and he laughed with me to, and at that moment there was this connection, it is hard to explain… but there was something about him. That day we spoke alot, he was telling me how he was going to get a job at a restaurant called milsoms (it’s very nice there) i was telling him how i love decorating cakes and would like to do that as a profession. We both clicked because we did have many interests that were either similar or the same.

A week later we got together but then a week later we broke up….. he went out with another girl…. and a few months later i went out with another boy ….. he broke up with his girlfriend and went out with another one….. i broke up with the other boy and went out with another… so love by love….. Throughout this though we still spoke and we were friends, we texted each other.. but then we started to meet up again (when we were single) and there was still that connection there… it was so strong i would find myself having to look away because we kept having those moments where i was about to kiss him!  Day by day i would find myself falling more and more in love with him…. until the day he asked me out, which happened to be when i was ill, and in and out of hospital! It was so sweet! Honestly i think he got me through the bad patch in my life… with a smile on my face…he is my hero… without him i am not to sure how i would of got through it all, some people say ‘all you need is love’… it was my medicine, some people die from what i had, and the percentage is fairly high… so i must say he helped me alot, i had a fixed heart and that made a big differance…i am grateful that i got better, and i am very grateful for what i have in life and most importantly who i have in my life… my friends, my family and my boyfriend <3

My friends call me ‘cupid’  because i find them there parnter and i put that smile on there face, but that day ‘cupid’  found her mr right <3  

………………..day by day my love still grows stronger for him.

i learnt alot about the ways of love on my travels, some in which i will share, but for now just remember love will find you.

sometimes change is good, sometimes change is bad, either way change in life takes a while to get use to. At the moment, in my life alot is changing, starting a new college, where i don’t no anyone… I start tomorrow, and my nervs are getting the better of me. I have spent the day wishing to go back to the school life, my comfort zone. I have to keep reminding myself though, its easier to run back to my old life, than it is to run forward into the new one, and taking the easy way out, is not always the best way out. I will have to hold my head high, and smile. Unfortunatly i don’t forget to be nervous when starting something new, but i do forget my confidence.